I’m sorry for everything.

I’m sorry for pushing you away because I know I did that. It’s what I do best.

I’m sorry for making everything your fault; we both have work to do and fears to get over and it seems like neither is emotionally stable enough for a relationship right now.

But I don’t want what we have to end because of me. I got antsy because it’s been two years since I felt about someone the way I feel about you.

You’re different.

You’re one of the good ones.

I’m not going to let this go without a fight.

But no actually.

Can we please define the goddamned relationship.

I would like to know if this is ever going to go anywhere.

Mike says it is but I don’t see any progress actually being made.

And I know I’m being super annoying.

I keep saying you hate me.

I know you don’t. 

But I feel like maybe you’re purposely trying to distance yourself from me so eventually it will just end and we won’t talk anymore.

Because since we aren’t dating you can’t break up with me.

This is shitty.

Time to determine where we stand.